are you where you’re supposed to be?

A couple of nights ago, one of my colleagues asked us if we think we’re at the place we should be. I said, “Yes.” Maybe, in the past, I would’ve said, “I think so” or “I don’t know.” However, every time I remember the chain of events that brought me here, I can certainly say that I’m where I’m supposed to.

Unfortunately, there are circumstances that will make me doubt, make me feel that I’m at the wrong place. Times when I mess things up. Times when I find myself completely lost at what I should be doing. Thoughts of I don’t belong here enter my mind and ideas of looking another destination will follow after.

Good thing I learned to comfort myself when these things happen. I found a way to tell myself that “No, you belong here” because I realized that not all mistakes happen because we’re forcing ourselves to belong in a place where we shouldn’t be. I realized that mistakes still happen at the right place because we still need to grow where we are even we’re already at “home.”

This week, I was sort of sent to the “principal’s office” because our client made a series of “complaints” regarding my work. It wasn’t the first time. However, during the other case with a different client, I questioned myself why am I working in this office, in this company. Because, to be honest, I had no background with this industry. I consider myself to be a newbie. So big mistakes make me think that this is not the place for me.

But this time, it’s different. I told myself that I won’t let my mistakes make me feel that I shouldn’t be where I am. Because they’re not the basis. I learned along the way that I don’t have to feel inadequate because God was the one who put me where I am. I didn’t make a wild guess when I picked this company. I prayed for it. Even fasted for it. So being here isn’t really random at all.

So every time something comes up that will make me question why I’m here. I just remind myself that God put me here. I’m here because of Him. Only Him can tell me that I shouldn’t be here. He just wants me to grow, be better where I am.