three words: a “100 tula para kay stella (100 poems for stella)” word vomit

[Warning: spoiler ahead]

He has a speech defect. To speak smoothly, he’s told to limit his sentences to just three words.

He meets a girl that became his world. Nevermind her imperfections, she deserves the best of everything.

He decides to write her 100 poems to tell her he loves her – 100 poems about her physical beauty, her irresistible personality, and her “undeniable greatness.”

A hundred poems of his disillusionment of her.

A hundred poems that took four years to complete.

As sweet, touching and grand as it was, the 100 poems didn’t give him her “Yes.”

With a ring on her finger and a baby on the way, it’s already too late.

(So driven is he in completing his 100 poems for her, he froze her in a world he has made in his head, forgetting that she too is living in the same world as him.)

Writing 100 poems that don’t even mirror who she really is – her struggles, her flaws, her brokenness – has been totally unnecessary.

She pointed out him all he needed were three words:

“I like you.”

“I love you.”

All along he already had what he needed to win her heart:


Three words are what he does best. Yet, he failed to use them when he should’ve had.

So mindful of his speech defect, he forgot the things he has – his impressive smarts, his singing voice, and his good heart.

So focused is he in making himself better for her, he failed to recognize the amazing things about himself.

So concentrated is he in his flaws, he has made things complicated for him.

He made her so “perfect” in her mind that he thought he has to just at least come close to her “perfection.” Little did he know, he got everything together better than she does.

He never really knew her.

He never really saw her for who she is.

The her that he knew is the her he put together in his mind, in his poems – the her that became his world. He thought 100 poems are needed to make her fall in love with him.

Fortunately, she knows who she is. She doesn’t need 100 poems to fall in love with him.

She knew him.

She saw the heart amidst the speech defect and loved him for it.

From it, she knew it can never be them. It can never be him for her. It can never be her for him.

From it, she straightened him out: she told him she doesn’t deserve to be his world.

No one is. No one should be.


brave little soldier

[Warning: Spoiler ahead]

Sometimes, the biggest sacrifice comes from those people think of so little.

Ever since “The Great Wall” was announced more than a year ago, I was already looking forward to seeing it. I admit that it was due to Lu Han’s inclusion that made me interested in the movie. Though I know his role won’t be that big, I knew I just have to see him in it.

I was curious what character Lu Han would play. The story was set during one of China’s dynasties and it was a story about war. What could he possibly play? Then they said that he would be a soldier and I laughed at the ludicrousness of the idea. How could a sweet, boyish young man become a soldier during the said era? Then they said that he would be a soldier who was weak and cowardly. Again, I laughed. That character would indeed suit him.

I know it’s mean of me to think of him in such a way, but I just couldn’t help but be realistic.

So the time finally come to watch the movie. I don’t know what I was expecting. I know Lu Han had a small role and yet his name and face is all over the movie poster – out-billing the two Hollywood actors who have more scenes in the film. I just don’t want the reason to be marketing (no one can argue that he’s one of the most bankable Chinese celebrities).

Anyway, as expected, Lu Han only had few scenes and even fewer lines. Just like what Matt Damon said in his interviews when asked about Lu Han, the boy acted with his face and eyes really well. Upon seeing the movie, I understood what he meant. Without much dialogues, everything the Lu Han’s character has to say was conveyed on his face – the shame, embarrassment and frustration.

It might sound biased but Lu Han’s character has more dynamics than the rest (probably aside from Matt Damon’s). In the span of 1 hour and 55 minutes, Lu Han’s character evolved (not drastically but just right) from being a cowardly soldier into a brave one. He didn’t become a soldier who suddenly knew how to fight just because he faced his fears – that won’t be realistic. However, he became a soldier who gained enough courage to help fight the war (thanks to the few encouraging words from Matt’s character that he didn’t understand).

So, Lu Han’s fate in the movie was actually really noteworthy. I even felt bad for him. But at the same time, I was proud of his character. The brave little soldier.